Maybe right now I don’t need love.
Maybe I still need to expand my horizons, travel across different oceans, meet more people who will inspire me and just have the freedom to choose where to go, who to be and what to do without having another human being to think about.
Maybe I still need to learn more about what kind of love I want. Maybe I still need to know if I’m trying to find love or if I’m just trying to understand my heart. Maybe I need more time to figure out what my heart really needs. Maybe I just need to cleanse my heart. Maybe I need to love my heart the way no one knew how.
Maybe I need to be for myself everything I’ve been asking people to be for me. Maybe I need to be my person for now. Hold my own hand.
Maybe I’m meant to experience more heartbreaks than love because I’m my own security. I’m my own safety. I’m the only one who knows how to calm the chaos in my mind and heal the wounds in my heart.
Maybe I’m just meant to kiss my own scars because I’m the only one who knows how deep they are. I’m the only one who knows how much they hurt.
Maybe all I need right now is me because I need to work on the relationship with myself. To fix the years I tormented myself. To mend the broken pieces. To reshape myself. To redeem myself.
Maybe for now, I’m the one for me because I need to learn how to live with that — all of it. I know I can live with myself forever, I just need to figure out how to make that the most beautiful and most meaningful relationship of my life.
-@ranianaim (via @thoughtcatalog // instagram)